My Journey – From Self-Critical to Self-Confident Part 3

So here it is, peeps…my third and final installment of my journey from self-critical to self-confident.

Wondering what else could possibly happen?  If you read part one and two, you now know that my prayers were answered about my body image, raising my confidence through the roof and putting an end to my self-criticism, but my story doesn’t end there.

There was another aspect of my life that was causing me anxiety (yes, more, I’m finding I was quite a mess). I’m such a planner and somewhat of a control freak, so it made me super anxious to think about what my future had in store for me in terms of a job.

I was a teacher before my two children were born, and even though I loved being a teacher, I wondered how I would be able to balance school life and family life. There are just so many hours spent working outside of the school day with emails, conferences, meetings, grading, planning, (seriously, it’s too much), and I didn’t want my job spilling over into my family time. Plus, my hubby would not be a happy camper if I missed a lot of that quality time.  That’s when we’re in the zone.  Spending time together is our stress reliever, and I didn’t want to ruin that.

And what I really wanted was to be completely present in my kids’ lives – being able to volunteer in their classrooms, go on field trips, be there when they got home from school – and I didn’t want to even think about the stress of writing sub plans if one of them got sick, or finding someone else to watch them when they had days off and I didn’t.

So I worried about what I would do for work.  A lot.

My husband didn’t understand why I worried because he never pressured me to work; actually, he loved that I stayed home with the kids.  He encouraged it.  But it was pressure I put on myself.  Heck, I’m a type-A woman who likes to succeed. I like being busy.

I never imagined myself as only a stay-at-home mom once the kiddos were both in school, and I couldn’t quite picture myself diving into full-time work either.  Both scenarios work great for many women, but for me, and I knew I needed to find a middle ground.

So when I prayed about my body image, I also prayed that God would provide a path for me where I could make a difference in people’s lives, have flexibility to work when I wanted and the freedom to take off and travel if we decided to do that, and most importantly, be home with my kids. And just like my body image prayer, I prayed about my future for an entire year.

Funny thing is, even though I focused on my future every day in prayer, I felt less and less anxious about it.  It was like a weight was lifted off me.

I never expected what would happen because of those prayers. My life’s trajectory went off in a completely new direction I didn’t even know existed.

After completing the Focus T25 program, I was so ecstatic with the results that I just wanted to tell everyone about it. I had no idea that I could share my story, help people improve their health and fitness, still use my gift of being an encourager, and get a little money on the side.

It was called being a Beachbody Coach.

My friend who invited me over for the workout?  A Beachbody Coach.  She completely changed my life, and I could do the same for others.

But I just kept thinking, “I don’t know. Is becoming a coach something I should do?”

Under normal circumstances, I’m a quick decision maker.  We joke in my family that I got all the decision making genes.  It drives me absolutely bonkers when we go to ten stores and then go back to the first store because my hubby wanted to see all of his options.  GAH! So you can imagine my dismay when I kept going back and forth on this one.

I don’t know why it was so hard.  Maybe it was because it was such a different path than my life has taken up to this point?  Maybe it was because this meant I was putting my teaching career on hold?  Maybe it was just because it meant taking another leap of faith?

Luckily, I didn’t have to wait long to get my answer.  It came one day when I was sitting in church. The pastor was talking about “Giving Freedom”.  He was talking about giving monetary freedom, and how we can help reduce the burden on others that can’t quite make the financial commitment they hoped, but as he was talking the craziest thing happened.

I kid you not.  Nothing like this has ever happened to me.  NOTHING.

But all of a sudden it was like, BOOM! I felt something in my heart and then heard, thought, whatever you want to call it, “You can do that. You can give people freedom too… freedom from self-criticism, self-doubt, and shame that often comes along with being overweight or unhealthy.”

“What just happened?” I asked myself as I felt goosebumps rise on my arms. I started to tear up before my brain could comprehend what was going on.

Now, crying is not unusual for me; I call myself “water works” because it’s quite common for me to cry, especially when it deals with my faith, but this time it was stronger.  It was extra personal, so comforting, and so real.

It was at that moment that I decided I should become a coach to help others find freedom by supporting them in their own health and fitness journey.

When people change their body, they increase their self-confidence and are freed from those negative thoughts that weigh them down. I started thinking of the ripple effect this could have.

By helping others get results, increase their confidence, and realize their potential, how will that affect their world and the world around them?

It’s awe-inspiring to consider.

And that’s what I wanted to be a part of, because really, what’s better than getting rid of self-criticism, replacing it with confidence, and because of that confidence reaching your potential?

Not a whole lot.


If you’d like to talk more about what I did to get my results, please contact me!  I’m happy to help you on your journey!


2 thoughts on “My Journey – From Self-Critical to Self-Confident Part 3

  1. Pingback: My Journey – From Self-Critical to Self-Confident Part 2 | Finding Freedom

  2. Pingback: My Journey – From Self-Critical to Self-Confident Part 2 | Amy Jordan Fitness

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